When the powerful feel weak

I find myself angry these days.

All the while feeling like I don't deserve to be angry.

Often feeling especially guilty for being angry, given my especially good life.

I find myself confused and wanting.

Unsure how to combat this consistent conundrum.

Searching self over and over for seeds of discontent.

Why do I feel so powerless and weak?

Why do I feel so powerless and weak, despite not actually being powerless or weak (most of the time)?